So I’ve always been a tall girl growing up. Not only that, I was chubby. I’ve never been at a healthy weight. I’ve lost weight before but gained it because because I’m too lazy to keep up with the excercise and keep eating some junk food. Always snacking. My doctor said if I don’t get my weight under control, I’ll end up with diabetes and I don’t care enough to watch what I’m eating and I just put garbage in my mouth. They told me quit frankly I’m lazy and don’t care enough about my health. Wow that really hurts but they do have a point. When they hit me with the brutally honest truth, I felt shame and hurt. I’m 5’9” and 237lbs. Nobody believes I weigh that much and some people say I look good and never thought I was fat. They just be blind. Some of my family doesn’t want me to lose weight and told me I’m just curvy and a man like a lot of flesh on a woman than thin. What’s the point of losing weight if going to keep falling and most guys liking chubby/fat girls. .
How can someone that weigh as much as me or weight more look so good but I don’t look good on certain people? I was the DUFF of my friends and petite or slimmer women get hit on or dates more than I do and I’m a fat ass. Most boys in school never had a crush on me. Why would they like a tall, fat dark skinned black young woman?
Short women get hit on or get attention but once they they see me, I get ignored and passed by or get told I’m too tall or too big. Even guys my height won’t even look at me.
