I keep forgetting things that people tell me. They’re always nice about it the first few times but now their patience is starting to kinda run thin.
I feel like such a d*mbass but the truth is, if someone tells me something nicely in a casual and friendly kind of manner any number of times, I’m still far less likely to remember it than if they scold and scream at me about it just one time.
And even though its always trivial things like forgetting a notebook, or carrying a piece of equipment differently than they suggest, it still gets to them.
Anyway, I don’t want to continue pissing off the people I work with, but I keep going down that path.
And I understand why they feel that way. But I’m not trying to upset anybody on purpose. I think they’re all nice people and I’m not angry at them but I just really feel dissapointed in myself.
I could tell them that I have autism and cognitive functioning disorders, but I don’t feel like making excuses for myself, even if they are valid.
I just want to develop strategies going forward. I try to scream inside my head “FCKING REMEMBER THIS, FCKING REMEMBER THIS” and write sticky notes for myself, but I just hope it works.
I’ve been with the company for about a month now, and this week they’ve just really run thin with me on patience.
So yeah, I get that I’m an autistic f*ckup but I just don’t want to be unemployed for the rest of my life because working is the only thing I have that distracts me away from the pain of the isolated and lonely life I feel when I’m not working.
I come home from work everyday just feeling depressed and realizing I’m alone that I have nobody.
And so I just don’t want to lose the one outlet I have left. Especially since my life goals depend on it.
I have plans of marrying and raising kids in the future, but the truth is, if I’m already in danger of possibly losing a job, than how could I ever expect to have a stable relationship?
I just worry that these are the beginning signs of worse things to come.
I feel like such a d*mbass but the truth is, if someone tells me something nicely in a casual and friendly kind of manner any number of times, I’m still far less likely to remember it than if they scold and scream at me about it just one time.
And even though its always trivial things like forgetting a notebook, or carrying a piece of equipment differently than they suggest, it still gets to them.
Anyway, I don’t want to continue pissing off the people I work with, but I keep going down that path.
And I understand why they feel that way. But I’m not trying to upset anybody on purpose. I think they’re all nice people and I’m not angry at them but I just really feel dissapointed in myself.
I could tell them that I have autism and cognitive functioning disorders, but I don’t feel like making excuses for myself, even if they are valid.
I just want to develop strategies going forward. I try to scream inside my head “FCKING REMEMBER THIS, FCKING REMEMBER THIS” and write sticky notes for myself, but I just hope it works.
I’ve been with the company for about a month now, and this week they’ve just really run thin with me on patience.
So yeah, I get that I’m an autistic f*ckup but I just don’t want to be unemployed for the rest of my life because working is the only thing I have that distracts me away from the pain of the isolated and lonely life I feel when I’m not working.
I come home from work everyday just feeling depressed and realizing I’m alone that I have nobody.
And so I just don’t want to lose the one outlet I have left. Especially since my life goals depend on it.
I have plans of marrying and raising kids in the future, but the truth is, if I’m already in danger of possibly losing a job, than how could I ever expect to have a stable relationship?
I just worry that these are the beginning signs of worse things to come.
