there's good days and bad days, but the bad days will outweigh the good. pretty much ever girl i know talks about how their mother is the reason why they have so many self confidence issues and why they’re insecure and its the same here. i’ve grown up with her picking on me all the time and very clearly preferring my brothers to me - and always wanting me to do everything and saying my brothers shouldn’t because i’m the girl. and not to my surprise- she isn’t thankful when i do what she says. she’ll pick on whatever i did and say that im never doing it properly. instead of teaching me and saying try it like this she says i can't do anything- hence the reason why at this point when she tells me to do things i just block it out because whats the point if she just criticises it and never ever ever ever ever is grateful. she tells me i need to learn how to cook and never tastes my food when i do. what really got to me is i noticed that whenever i change something about how i look (im a teen and experimenting with different styles to try figure out whats for me) she will say ‘do you think you look pretty because you don’t’ ANYTHING. dye my hair? same thing. cut it? same thing. new top? same thing. its always the exact same thing. i dyed my hair and it was wet so it still looked black and she still even said do you think you look pretty because you don’t- so i know that it’s spiteful and isn’t even her talking about my hair.
i feel as though sometimes i need to knock down her confidence as well instead of always being the bigger person and blocking it out. why should i have to deal with it? why shouldn’t i say to her that her dress doesn’t make her look pretty?
i feel as though sometimes i need to knock down her confidence as well instead of always being the bigger person and blocking it out. why should i have to deal with it? why shouldn’t i say to her that her dress doesn’t make her look pretty?
