Lately, so much stuff has been going on that I literally can't function day to day. I have to have a lump removed from my breast, I was diagnosed with bradycardia, and my memory is getting awful from it. My sister has been arrested, and is facing 20 years. I was just visiting trying to help and ended up taking care of her two sick high maintenance dogs with separation anxiety on a limited income, along with my dogs and 2 cats and also taking care of my grandma in the late stages of dementia who was constantly peeing and pooping on herself, not eating and freaking out etc.
dealing with my brothers who both act like 10 yr olds and don't do anything but complain while my mom is on trips, when she got arrested. I already suffer from GAD, depression, OCD, BPD, PTSD and epilepsy. I'm having seizures when I'm stressed. I have a mental fog, I'm running on autopilot. I actually live with my grandpa who is a hoarder a pervert and bothers me 24/7. I just got back yesterday from cleaning up after my grandma, sick dogs for a month, vomit, diarrhea (even falling in it) paying a vet bill, dogs chewing through the shit etc. I had to train them! And as soon as I get back I'm made to clean up a hoarders nest, and blamed for it being that way, and end up being sexualized repeatedly by my own grandfather, and my ptsd is mostly SA based, and find out about some sick incest I could have lived without hearing. My uncle who I haven't seen since I was 7 is sending me weird messages, but not talking to my siblings and it's triggering, then today I find out I was diagnosed with aspergers as a child, but my mom didn't want to tell me because you didn't think it was that big of a deal.
oh my fucking God lol literally my mind is racing, I don't know what to do or where to go. Who to talk to, because I have major trust issues, I don't even have friends. I can't even cry. I haven't cried in three years. I can only laugh. How do I relax? How do I calm my mind? I just want to hide and run away
dealing with my brothers who both act like 10 yr olds and don't do anything but complain while my mom is on trips, when she got arrested. I already suffer from GAD, depression, OCD, BPD, PTSD and epilepsy. I'm having seizures when I'm stressed. I have a mental fog, I'm running on autopilot. I actually live with my grandpa who is a hoarder a pervert and bothers me 24/7. I just got back yesterday from cleaning up after my grandma, sick dogs for a month, vomit, diarrhea (even falling in it) paying a vet bill, dogs chewing through the shit etc. I had to train them! And as soon as I get back I'm made to clean up a hoarders nest, and blamed for it being that way, and end up being sexualized repeatedly by my own grandfather, and my ptsd is mostly SA based, and find out about some sick incest I could have lived without hearing. My uncle who I haven't seen since I was 7 is sending me weird messages, but not talking to my siblings and it's triggering, then today I find out I was diagnosed with aspergers as a child, but my mom didn't want to tell me because you didn't think it was that big of a deal.
oh my fucking God lol literally my mind is racing, I don't know what to do or where to go. Who to talk to, because I have major trust issues, I don't even have friends. I can't even cry. I haven't cried in three years. I can only laugh. How do I relax? How do I calm my mind? I just want to hide and run away
