I hurt a friend badly out of jealousy. She never wants to see me again. How do I forgive myself?

[Anonymous]

I was always jealous of my perfect friend the two years we became friends. The jealousy just built up and up, and I ended up taking it out on her and did something really bad, I ended up sabotaging her job and she got fired. Now she won’t talk to me and blocked me. I try to push the guilt at what I’ve done down, but it feels super painful and I hate myself. How do I deal with the guilt and shame?

[Sandeeppingping]

Damn not cool at all bruv, I mean at least you're admitting to it, but yea you're probably gonna have to live with it until maybe some day you can come clean and she forgives you, although I don't expect her to forgive you even after you come clear while being all in tears and shit, so sorry for that

[KrakenAttackin]

You don't. You have to live with what you have done.

[Avicenna]

Become a better person

[888theGreat]

you grow up and don't do it again

[888theGreat]

I also think quit telling yourself sorry and tell her sorry