My half sister feels like my cousin. Does this make me a bad person?

[Anonymous]

My parents divorced when I was 8 and I grew up as a single child my whole life and I would live with my mum and be with my dad every weekend. In 2016, when I was 15 years old, my dad had another child with his girlfriend. The age gap is big and I don't live with my dad so it is very hard to connect with my sister. Me and my dad don't have the best relationship and I also have my own personal problems to deal with, I'm also a university student with tons of assignments to do as well and I'm also not very good at spending time with children or looking after them. Because of all of this she feels more like a cousin than a sister and I feel bad about it. I hope we can bond better when she's older and I don't want her to feel like I don't love her when I do. But at the same time I find it very hard to spend time with her and play with her when my whole life I was so used to just being alone in my room doing my own thing. I just felt like I had to get this off my chest. I hope this doesn't make me a terrible person. I don't know what to do about this.

[RACSKC0B]

How you feel is totally reasonable, I get it, you had to keep yourself entertained when you were her age there's no reason she can't do the same.

Right?

So here's the thing that you're missing, when you were her age you probably would have enjoyed having a sister to talk to, hang out with, go places, etc... But you didn't. She does have a sister, there's a big difference in age, but she's still your sister. Depending on how old she is, you're probably the coolest person she's ever met. You're the person she has the most things in common with, even more then her mom and dad. At least from her point of view, because your sisters in her eyes you're equals, Moms and Dads are authority above both of you. It doesn't make you a bad person to feel how you do. But I promise it would make you feel like a great person, if you gave her some attention like you would have liked at her age, and you'd be right for feeling that way.

[Guy13]

I’m closer to my cousin than some of my family members. More friends than family which is without a stress that comes with scrutinizing family.

[Mynameisbobby]

I don't think this makes you a terrible person at all. You have nothing to feel bad about. Just be yourself.

[Dinosaursandanime65]

You care and try, sounds good enough to me