We had a very big family growing up, at some point there were 10 of us.
I remember I was mostly cherished and respected by adults in my family,
however, there were instances, when it was forgotten I was there too and when I was studying, I heard swearing in the most horrible ways, extremely gross and disgusting vocabulary.
I remember I felt very uncomfortable, as I didn’t understand how could a person love and respect me and swear this way we in my presence at the same time.
I felt mixed emotions, extreme unease and discomfort. I thought that was sick.
Even thinking of it now, I feel very bad, when I remember those instances.
When they saw me, they’d apologize for their bad words around me.
But the next day the same would happen and I felt very bad, I haven’t remembered it for a long time, I just remembered it and I felt very bad.
I did not know those memories would awaken such upset feelings in me.
I remember sometimes I would even get teary eyes because of discomfort I felt.
Is it normal I felt such discomfort even though these words weren’t addressed to me?