My crush found my secret notebook (I mentioned him there) and it's likely he read it all right?

[Anonymous]

We've already known each other since 5th grade. At the time, I didn't know how to express myself too much so instead of showing kindness towards him and a couple classmates, it was the opposite. However, I would target him the most.

Eventually I started outgrowing that stage and we (as HS sophomores) get along fine by now but my long crush on him remained a secret. Then just last week I accidentally left my notebook.

The next day he returned it back. He said he found it and was like ''thanks goodness I found it. People nowadays steal things. You got to be careful with your personal items''. Yet there is one problem. In order for someone to know it's me, someone would have to see my full name written first page. It isn't just my name written by also a picture of him from our school yearbook and me basically confessing to always wanting him since we met, wishing we were together and more things.

If the only way for him to know it belongs to me is to read my name on it and by reading my name, he would be reading everything I just wrote and see his picture. So now he knows and likely read it all right?

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3 mo

There is only a slim chance he knew it was my notebook, maybe by just seeing the color (it's black covered composition notebook) but unlikely. Like mentioned my name isn't on the cover but on the first page.

[Oliverlogan263]

Oh man, that's brutal. Yeah, no way he didn't read everything in that notebook if he had to see your name to know it was yours. Oof, I can only imagine how mortifying that must be.

But look, at least now you know for sure how he feels too, right? Whether he likes you back or just wants to be friends, the awkwardness of your secret crush is out in the open. Might as well own it now.

I'd just play it cool if I were you. Maybe casually thank him again for returning it, and joke that you hope "nothing too embarrassing was in there." See how he responds - if he teases you back that's a good sign! Or if he gets flustered and changes the subject fast, ah well.

Either way I say use this as an opportunity. You've got nothing to lose now. Ask him to hang out, just the two of you, and see where the conversation leads. You never know - he may have been crushing right back! Have some courage, girl. You got this!

[Drew-1990]

I don't think it's right to read anyone's notebook. If you find someone's notebook and don't know who's it is, just look at the first page to see if there's a name or not but don't go reading someone's personal thoughts, especially if possible you know the person.

[Asker]

The problem is the first page has everything written in obvious understandable letters and some are big letters, not just my full name but his name and my confession of always wanting him, along with a picture of him too. It would be nearly impossible for someone to miss that.

[Drew-1990]

Oh that's a problem, if that's on the very first page you're screwed lol. I think a lot of people will open to see if they can see your name in it or not. And honestly, even though I wouldn't want to be nosy if I opened up and saw my picture or name I would be tempted to look even though I know I shouldn't.

[Asker]

yeah he definitely knows. He had a slight smirk on him. Well if he brings up the topic, I have nothing left but to admit it by now. The cat is out of the bag and there is no going back. Though it would've been cool if he found out in another manner, perhaps me telling him at my own pace... not this way.

[Drew-1990]

I agree, It'd be better you found out another way. But I think You need to figure out what he read. If it was just the first page, I wouldn't be too upset. That'd be hard not to look after seeing your name and face. But if he went through the whole thing, that is a huge invasion of your privacy.

[laly520]

he might find that creepy

[Asker]

I feel so awkward now. It's already highly likely he knows it. So what should I do now just to be prepared if he brings up the topic?
He's been sweet to me (well that's how he generally is) but yes I caught a slight smirk on him too.

[laly520]

there isn't much to do about it
if he brings it up then u gotta admit it

[Asker]

yeah, the cat is out of the bag now and there is no going back. It would've been better if he had known this in another way and at my own pace.