How do you overcome the worst moments of your life?

[Anonymous]

After years of emotional struggle, I finally had a complete and total mental breakdown. In retrospect, I can see how it happened, and how I was falling more and more each day. I was on edge, and losing my sense of reality, until I finally just snapped. In the process, I lost a close friend due to my own actions, and betrayed my own honor.

I immediately regretted it, and recognized how far my mental health crisis had gotten. However, what was done, was done. The only positive from it being it woke me up to the fact I needed help.

Now my life is in shambles. I have lost the respect of people. Many people who originally trusted me, and saw me as a good person now likely question those assumptions.

What do I do now? How do I build myself from here? How do I regain my honor? How do I regain the respect back from those I hurt?

[Anonymous]

Brother, I am exactly in the same position as yours

I ghosted my best friend and other friends, my whole family considered me a loser and I myself feel I'm a sore loser

All I can say is good luck , I'll see you on the other side.. JUST DON"T QUIT

[Cheapskate]

It's fine that you want to mens fences with your friend, but I figure if you are in this much pain, maybe you need help first. You say yourself you have been suffering for years.

[Asker]

What I did was terrible, and gruesome. It was very aggressive and violent.
It didn't involve hurting anyone physically, but it was well beyond anything I've done before.

You are right, I need to work on myself.

[Cheapskate]

Okay, but it's good you are acknowledging that. I just feel like you must be in a difficult spot and that support might be necessary. The social relationships can be tended to in due course.

[Asker]

Sadly, she is my neighbor
and my coworker is her best friend
so I can't avoid it.

[Cheapskate]

Okay. Well, just take care of yourself too and get the help you need.

[Asker]

im trying

[Cheapskate]

Good luy

[Cheapskate]

*luck

[Asker]

So you do believe that if I continue to work on myself, change my outlook on life. . etc.
That these issues can be mended, and people can move on, and maybe in the future I will be forgiven

or at the very least a better person that has grown from this?

[Cheapskate]

I don't know bro. This might be a one time thing. You might age out of it. Or it might be a life-long issue. All you can really do is make sure you're not providing fertile ground for it to grow. I think social isolation can make people more crazy. As can sleep deprivation or even just a poor diet. So yeah, take care of yourself and get help from others too. One step at a time.

[Asker]

thank you

[Cheapskate]

You're welcome

[Anonymous]

If you don't have that inner strength, life will always seem far more complicated than it actually is.

[Asker]

I am slowly trying to build that inner strength.

[HateyouxD]

Honestly this sounds unrepairable

[Anonymous]

Snapped? What did u do to your friend

[Asker]

I was already losing a sense of reality. Extreme paranoia started to take over, and my anxiety was at such a level that I was already damaging my own belongings (like my tv). I nearly got into a car accident as well out of pure anxiety.

With my friend, I accused them of betraying me on the phone, and then threatened them, and walked out and damaged their property.
Immediately apologized and called them after, and told them to all the police on me.
I knew mentally I collapsed.

[Opinion Owner]

Betraying? Uhm ok weird 😂

[Asker]

Well, like I said, I lost my sense of reality.

[Opinion Owner]

How old are u

[Asker]

It doesn't matter.
The point is, im trying to work on myself now
I hope they can forgive me, and somehow we can move on from this in time.