Oh Boy: Crushes I've Had, and Why They Didn't Develop Into Love

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Oh Boy: Crushes I've Had, and Why They Didn't Develop Into Love

My last take touched basis on my love life, which is nonexistent. I'm 18, which is very young, so no, you don't need to point that out. I realize I have forever, and never in that take did I say I was even looking for someone. However, that was that take and it's over with. Anyway, that got me thinking, I haven't dated anyone, in fact I haven't even kissed anyone. Yet, I have had plenty of crushes and I think I'd like to tell you about them. This is obviously more personal to me than you all, but I find my past interests to be very amusing.



My First Real Crush
Oh Boy: Crushes I've Had, and Why They Didn't Develop Into Love


I won't give out names but let's just say it was the name of a state, or two. North and South. Think cold and Crazy Horse Monument. You with me? Good. I was in 7th grade when I met this boy. He was tall and a little husky. Not chubby, just bigger. I think I liked this boy because, he gave me attention, which no boy ever had before, but this kid, gave LOTS of girls attention. Some girls he would constantly tease and flirt with and I happened to be one of the exclusive girls. So, obviously, I fought it. I would tease back, minus the flirting.



But then 8th grade started and I had most of my classes with him, and I kept getting my seat assigned next to him, so our flirt/tease game really blossomed that year. I was full blown obsessed, not like, smell his hair when he wasn't looking obsessed, but refresh his Facebook over and over, and like his TBH posts. However, high school started and I just moved on. These days, I don't really know what he is doing, think he's talking to some girl a few years younger than us.



The "Sneaker Head"
Oh Boy: Crushes I've Had, and Why They Didn't Develop Into Love


This boy was tall and skinny. Really skinny. He was one of those guys who was tan with light brown hair so everything was just the same shade. In 9th grade we went on an art field trip to D.C. at the end of freshman year. I ended up with a small group of friends and he somehow got mixed in. We spent a lot of time walking side by side, falling behind the group. He laughed at all my jokes, really hard. What was this? A guy, who thinks I'm funny, is super nice to me, and cute. He was the quiet type, which I wasn't used to but was so willing to adjust to. I didn't see him over the summer but somehow I still had the feels for him. This was when ask.fm was hotter than ever. If you don't know what it is it's when you can anonymously ask people questions, great format for secret admirers.



So I, like the creep I am, filled his inbox daily, and talked to him through their, always flirting and also just being genuine about how neat I thought he was. He desperately wanted to know who I was. But I just couldn't tell him. I tried to grow some balls and through a mutual friend, I tried to get a feel about what he thought about me. She said he said I was "cute". I never found out if it was true, if he just said it to be nice or if he even said that at all. Skip ahead, I texted him told him the secret admirer was me, he said thanks basically and that was it. I soon learned that there isn't much to him, I don't say that to seem bitter but he is just a naturally kind of boring person. He's just flat, nothing wrong with that but it doesn't make me feel a little better that we weren't mean to be anyway. These days, he has a very large chest tattoo and has become really into to drinking, smoking, sneakers and rap music to each their own but it seems he wasn't my type in the end.



My best friend
Oh Boy: Crushes I've Had, and Why They Didn't Develop Into Love


One of my best buds used to have me completely heart eyes. I met him back in 6th grade but I didn't know him, just sat beside him in language arts. He disappeared, later found out he was home schooled. So fast forward to 10th grad gym. HE HATED ME. I had finally become confident and bubbly again for the first time in years. Some called me fun, some call me obnoxious. He couldn't stand my personality and I also refused to participate in gym to many of the guys liking. He was so in love with my best friend and if I'm being honest, he still has a soft spot.



They dated for a week and a half. Anyway, I fell for him harder than anyone in my entire life. I was almost miserable, about a year and some months ago, I told him the truth, how much I really truly, truly cared for him. We were really close by this point. He took it well, but expressed that he feared I would stop being his friend. Fast forward and I got over him, you could say I still have a soft spot to this day. But we are still close, I talk to him most days. You can scroll down some of my past questions and you can find quite a few questions about him. Today, he is dating a friend of mine and they seem rather happy.



The Male Version of my sister


Oh Boy: Crushes I've Had, and Why They Didn't Develop Into Love

Oh boy, this kid. I liked him for ALL the wrong reasons. There was a time where I thought that I wanted to lose my virginity and experience all these things. I was friends with him but not tremendously close. I had heard a story through our mutual friends that he had sex with some girl he met at a hotel over the summer. He was cute, but not so hot that I thought he was out of my league. Oh, this guy has had sex and we are in the same league, this could work.



This was junior year and I was finally out of my ugly stage so I decided I had a chance. But he's one of those guys you have to write it on your forehead for him to take a hint that you like him. I literally texted him EVERY SINGLE DAY without fail, we literally would talk about his dick all the time. Our conversations were so suggestive. I really did think he was cute though. I wanted to go to junior homecoming with him, but he liked another girl. I was bummed but okay. Moving on, buy around Christmas, I threw in the towel, I wasn't brave enough to tell him, my friends had tried, the lust has started to wear off, I gave up.



I ended up going to prom with him. Neither asked the other, we just didn't have dates in our group, so we paired up. I had gotten to know him better by now, I realized he had the EXACT same personality as my older sister, which is very nerdy, if that doesn't kill the mood, I don't know what does. I hang out with him from time to time. We went to a concert together about a month ago. Sometimes he comes off as flirty and I just think, if only you knew, or if this was like two years ago.


Oh Boy: Crushes I've Had, and Why They Didn't Develop Into Love

Remember the guy who I'm good friends with now just two paragraphs up? Yeah, so last summer, I met some friends of his. I didn't really remember this guy. Fast forward to a football game at my high school, this kid kind of ambushed me towards the end and quickly asked for my snapchat, I gave it to him. I asked my good friend what it was about he said "don't talk to him" jokingly. Almost to say, he's an idiot, don't worry about it. He messaged me that night and we talked a little the next day, really casually and then we just stopped. Forgot about him for the most part.



Fast forward to last month. I saw a snapchat of his buttcheeks being exposed on our mutual friend's story (he got pantsed). I didn't know it was him. I replied to it saying something about how I didn't need to see it. Anyway, he said how the guy thought I was hot and I totally remembered again. I stalked a little bit, he was really cute, cuter than I remembered. But I believe he was talking to someone at the moment. So today I saw on his story a very cute cuddly picture of him with a girl. Good for him. I didn't know him well, but I was hopeful, guys seldom think I'm cute and I also think they're cute. But I hope he is happy!



Moral of the story: There isn't one, I guess it just felt good to reminisce on the past. It was just fun. I'm completely aware that for many of you, this was pointless and boring. I just like to tell stories honestly. I've got forever for guys. No need to pine over one. I'm just a hopeless romantic, I think. Now, I'm focusing on me, I know things happen for a reason. I've been focusing more on my religion and happiness. It's good to have my mind few of boys for awhile, I would love being able to just relax. I'm a happy person, and intend to stay that way, regardless of the boys I encounter.

Oh Boy: Crushes I've Had, and Why They Didn't Develop Into Love

Oh Boy: Crushes I've Had, and Why They Didn't Develop Into Love
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