This is probably stupid Teenie stuff to some, but I learned so much in the past few years and figured I’d like to share that in the hope of helping someone who is also struggling.
I am sorry that this post was moved to "Girl's behaviour", I had posted it under "Other" because boys harm themselves too.
First off, I love this edit and have listened to it many times while self-harming in the last three years, meaning that it carries a lot of relevance to me now. Maybe listen to it while reading this.
I started cutting when I was 14, I had just transferred schools and didn’t handle it well. I was lonely and scared of being bullied again.
I continued cutting for more than two years but have been clean for ten months now.
I never did it for attention, and it’s taught me that I’m much stronger than I believed I was. I stopped cutting because a very close internet friend of mine told me that I am damaging my skin, meaning that I will no longer have sweat glands where I cut and that this skin will be damaged permanently. This led me to stopping about eight months later.
I didn’t get additional help or tell my therapist. But I made it because of this statement and because I knew I’d have to stop.
It’s embarrassing to be 15+ and cut yourself, especially to the extent at which I did it, it was no longer a joke, an experiment, or a game. It was serious and I didn’t want to admit that to myself.
2019 is the year I stopped cutting, worked out less (because I worked out too much before that (orthorexia)), and worked on myself like I have in no year prior to this one.
The friend I had left, and I miss him every day, so Mikkel, this one is for you, I love and miss you so much. I know you’re proud of me for stopping this nasty habit of mine you always hated terribly.
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