November 2020, you started my work and you instantly made my head turn. I thought ‘wow, what a beautiful girl’. I didn’t know how to handle it, so I didn’t speak to you for several days; I ignorantly just blanked you.
Then we started to work together and we instantly started flirting, there was an instant connection. At first I thought ‘maybe you’re just being overly friendly’, then you offered me a lift to my brothers after work. My brothers house was out of the way for you but you didn’t care. In the car journey, the flirting continued.
I went back to my brothers smiling and said ‘I’m flirting with the new girl and she’s beautiful’.
it started getting to the point, when I seen you I instantly smiled and got butterflies in my stomach.
You decided to message me on Facebook, then you asked for my Snapchat. I got greeted with a naked picture and oh my, it was absolutely beautiful. Then our flirting went to another level and I knew then me and you were meant to meet each other, there was just that connection we had.
One day I was sat in the car park waiting for my taxi home, I was sat on the floor. You approached me and asked what was wrong, you knew something was wrong. I was just physically drained because of the girl I was working with, she had me doing all the work as per usual.
You was crouched down and leaned forward towards me. Me being the clown I am, made you lose your balance. Then my taxi arrived. You messaged me on Snapchat to inform me you was going to kiss me before I made you lose your balance, then my taxi arrived. I was so gutted, I missed the opportunity of a kiss from a beautiful girl.
You was drunk one night and Snapchatted me something really inappropriate but believe me, it was perfect. When you sobered up, you apologised and said it wasn’t acceptable. That was just you covering your back incase I had a problem with it.
The flirting got to the point where we both would randomly send each other naked pictures and we didn’t care. We were both that comfortable around another one, it felt nice.
I told you I wanted to move out of our city and start fresh, a new life. You replied with ‘what about me? You can’t just forget about me’. So I stopped looking at places out of the city, just for YOU.
We got so close, to the point I knew I could tell you anything that was going on in my head. Somethings I couldn’t tell you because I don’t like speak about my mental health. I even told you I was self harming because I trusted you so much.
You was upset in work one day and I could tell you had been crying. Rather than asking you what was wrong, I just wrapped my arms around you and kissed you on the cheek. I knew you appreciated that. At this point, I knew I was crazy over you.
I was in work on shift and you were at home. You then went for a bath and sent me several snaps of you in the bath and I was so discreet so no one would see it. Then an anonymous person went to the manager and said ‘Samantha as been sending bath pics to Rachel’. I don’t know which CREEP was looking over my shoulder whilst I was on my phone, I was so careful.
Then several people went to the manager saying ‘somethings going on with Samantha and Rachel’.
The manager pulled you aside to have a word with you. What did you immediately do? Deny everything and tell the manager nothings gone on. You made me feel so worthless about myself. Then you accused me of showing people your naked pictures, when I wouldn’t do ANYTHING to hurt or upset you.
I got so frustrated and angry that I went around work asking who’s been talking about us. I told them that yes we have been flirting but that was just to stop them gossiping. I also wanted to find out who had been talking about you, to protect you; all that went through my head was protecting you!! But you never believed me and you thought I did it for myself.
I know I should have thought about the consequences before opening my mouth but at the time, I just wanted to protect you Samantha.
You offered to go to the manager and tell her the truth. That you really like me and you want to sleep with me. I told you not to bother because you’ve already done the damage.
I then found out you went around telling everyone in work that I’ve made it all up, nothings gone on. But not quite everyone believed your bull crap.
You made me feel so little about myself, I slept with another person the day after the argument. Denying it all, really didn’t help my confidence at all. I instantly regretted sleeping with them, during it I even messaged you. Telling you to come and pick me up and I’ll go back with you and forget about that person. You stalked me that night, driving past their house and sending me snaps of you driving past their house. I knew you were so angry with me. I self destructed but it was your fault for making me feel like absolute dirt.
We eventually sorted it out but I felt like you was trying to manipulate the entire situation, you wanted to be in control all the time. That isn’t how I roll. I wanted to make you feel the pain you caused me, I told you I was going to get in a relationship with the last person I slept with. You went mad at me and I told you I didn’t mean it and apologised.
The deputy manager pulled me aside and told me everything you’ve said behind my back. She thought I had a right to know. I kept it quiet for a while but eventually I exploded, I couldn’t take your lies anymore. It was destroying me inside. So I confronted you and because I wouldn’t tell you who told me, you was really horrible to me, denied saying it all. Then you blocked me on everything and refused to speak to me again.
You’re the one lying and making me out to be a compulsive liar, yet you’re angry at me? How does that work out??
You decided you was going back to your old job. You left 1 week before your notice at work but never bothered to tell me. I never even got a goodbye, hug or anything from you. You just vanished and completely hurt me.
I managed to get you to unblock me on Facebook and as per usual you tried to manipulate the situation.
At first you was ‘horrible’ then you said ‘you’ve been treating me like a dick and not acknowledged my existence for the last week’.
After everything you said to me the night you blocked me, can you blame me??
I added your new Snapchat because I knew if I was going to get answers, it’ll be on that. You then went mad because I added you, I only wanted answers to why you’ve left me broken and hurting.
You’re acting like you hate me, you won’t even speak to me. But I know deep inside, you don’t hate me. We were so close a couple of weeks before it.
I should hate you for everything you’ve put me through but I think I’m in love with you and this is why I can’t just let you go.
You’ve hurt me so much Samantha but I still want you but I’m coming to the realisation that you’re no good for me anymore.
Maybe one day, you’ll give me answers so I can let this rest and forget about us.
You’ll always be the beautiful eyed girl who walked away and I’ll always wish we ended differently.
I have evidence on my phone to prove I was telling the truth to everyone who believes your lies. But I won’t get satisfaction from it, I want you to not have a bad name in my work. You deserve it but I’m too crazy over you to do it to you.
I’ll only have a smile on my face if you walked back into my life and we could start again.
I’m so broken and I don’t know what to do, everyone keeps telling me to forget about you because you’re not worth it. But they don’t know how I feel inside, no one knows just how much I like you.
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I hope it works out for you
She hates me, literally won’t talk to me. She’s the one who massively messed up, yet I’m the one suffering for it.
Thank you though :)