I'm going to be 21 in less than a month and I never had a boyfriend and well never been with anyone. I'm a shy person and when I meet new people tend to be quiet, I dont like going to parties or overcrown places. I think is because I'm insecure and the overprotective family I have. I had meet guys and talk to them with some of them I became a great friends and it doesn't bother me. I had my almost kiss with a friend when I was nearly 14 years old with the guy I had a crush at that age, but it was interrupted by friends. I also talk with a guy in college but I was to hesitant and he was too forwad, but not passing a week after we stop texting he already had a girlfriend, however he hang around me, and my best friend said he still have a thing for me, but i realize i never did have feelings for him, so it's fine, I guess. But when I like someone I don't trust in myself and try to brush it off and not get close to him, because I put the idea on my head that I could never be with him, or he wouldn't find me attractive. My friends said I'm beautiful, family said the same and even other people I meet. I guess, I just have this walls and i'm really insecure about me, i'm a curvy or fat person (I would go more for curvy because i'm not so fat, but have big breasts) , so I get insecure, because I think guys would play with me or are joking. I had a frinds whom said, I am a yes but no person, because she had this friend who send me a friend request on one of my social network page and I have seen him and talked to him, and he asked her for my phone number and she asked me if she could, so I asked, Why? and later said if she wanted she can give it to him, because well, he didn't asked me and she have it on her contacts, I don't know what happened after that, but I was a little confuse because of the things I heard about him, even if he was a good guy, however they had history and he was talking also with one of he best friends so. There is another thing, when I think I can get to know someone and that I quite like, then I recieve a text from a friend that "I'm talking to xxxx and I like him, but I don't know what to do" so I back off, it's the right thing, because I'm that kind of friend that you can go with your problems and she would hear you out and try to help you, but to good that I nearly become the third wheel between them. I sometimes ask if there is something wrong with me. I know I'm a insecure, shy, introvert person, and maybe a lot of more things that can describe both me as a person and my personality. But above off all I'm a really good person, too good I would say. Heck I'm even studying to be a psychiatric. I seek confort on tattoos, I like them and always wanted one, so I think, if I ever find a guy whom like me, it has to be for me and accept me the way I am.
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