People say I'm pretty but I Dont feel it, how can I feel pretty?

[Anonymous]

When I was younger kids used to mimic Chinese words whenever I walked by, they called me weird, they said I looked like a man, they said I was ugly, i only have one dimple ( I don't know why i dont have 2) and they told me it was weird and they said I looked like a muscle man. My mom told me that I was pretty and to not let it bother me but it did. I mean if all the girls said I was ugly then I had to be ugly. And guys never approached. They never liked me either so I spent my entire childhood being embarrassed by myself. I was embarrassed of my skin and I hated myself. Fast toward to now I'm 17 and , I'm a junior in high school but take college classes at Georgia state, I'm silly/funny, I'm nice, I'm a virgin ( still never had a boyfriend) and I have a nice body. Guys and even girls call me cute, pr3tty, beautiful and sexy. It still surprises me that the guys I want actually like me back most of the time. I used to think if a guy liked me something had to be wrong with him! Or like he was trying to be funny and joke. Like why would someone like me? I take their compliments but I Dont feel connected to them at all. I Dont feel cute I Dont feel sexy. I dont feel beautiful. I feel ugly. When I look at myself in the mirror I guess i look good at a glance. But when I stare into the mirror I realize , I'm ugly and I have a big nose. That's why I hate when people get too close to my face because they might see everything I see. I mean how long until other people start to notice how ugly i really am. I would hate for people to look at me like I look at myself.