I've always been very pretty but not really been aware of it till I got older. Boys always liked me until went to secondary school boys hated me, they'd bully me and tell me I was ugly, stupid, bitch etc.
Now I'm older I realise I was bullied because I was a lot more emotionally mature and had a quick month and that why the boys didn't like me.
Once I turned 16 I started to notice them boys who bullied me all a sudden were trying to date me.
Because of the bullying I had growing up it made me extremely socially awkward and distrustful. I can't tell if boys really like me or are just making fun of me.
I finally got my first boyfriend at 21 and I love him very much. I moved to a new town to be with him and were getting are first house together.
In this town the men love me. I'm told constantly how beautiful I am and asked on on dates by very attractive men who back in the town I used to live him would never approach me and if they did it wouldn't be in a very nice way obviously I declined there offers because I have a boyfriend.
I'm only just starting to realise what powers my attractiveness has at 25. I've only just started to experience "pretty privilege" and I starting to should I start a only fans or something just to make money to pay off my mortgage.
I just worry one day I'll be old and my looks will fade and I wasted my beauty and youth
