I would describe myself to be a average type of guy. I would describe my crush as almost someone who is a celebrity in my eyes, I don't have like a low self-esteem or anything but I genuinely think she's out of my league.
We got to know eachother through work, and I'm probably the only male collegue she's close to. You know she made me Bento boxes for work! At work she always runs to me when she sees me in the lobby and smiles. Drops me off home after work even though I told her she doesn't have to since our houses are so far apart. She tugs on my arm casually whenever we're late. She compliments me on the little things, makes me feel masculine and is just so nice to me.
But at the same time, I think she behaves similarly with her girl friends. Whenever I behave, I guess in a flirtatious manner with her she straight up tells me, "Aaaah! I apologise for the overreaction, but I'm not used to having guy friends so that made my heart flutter. Don't mind it". I thought that meant she liked me until she said the same thing to a girl friend.
When she compliments me she looks directly at me and says the most heartfelt things with a innocent smile. She likes Korean Pop and there was a singer she was watching, I thought he was really handsome and talented so said "Wish I had just an ounce of that talent" and she was like, "In my eyes you're the Hongjoong of our company. You're literally my role model."
Following that day she also styled my hair like the singer Mingyu, did some skincare on me. You know doing someone's hair and face is kinda intimate in a way. I'm probably just overthinking.
The thing is, she's a really oblivious person in general so I can't tell if she likes me romantically or just as a friend. She pats me, leans on me clutches onto my hand unknowingly, but when I do it she gets tense and awkward. The mixed signals are killing me.
And my feelings for her keep growing, sometimes I hope she'd just be mean to me but she showers me with affection, I can't!
