People who were poor growing up?
I find it challenging lately. When i first got this job in this poorer area I was homeless but there is mindsets and mannerisms and ways of thinking that if you grew up with money, it doesn't just go away once you become poor. People can tell i am different than them. Richer people seem more colder in retrospect. Maybe my perception is wrong I don't know. I am not the most social person anyway. Poor people are warm and close to each other. I may have aspergers. I am awkward and socially anxious. I grew up being spoiled by parents who really substituted material things for actual care and time and attention. So i am naturally more attached to silly items and dont know how to attach to people. I am not warm even though i admire that quality in others i know i will never be something i am not and i realize also that i probably push warm people away because of my nature and its not by being mean. Its by being awkward, autistic, cold. I thought i was a nice sweet person but even if i am, its not expressed in a way others can understand and so i am often bullied (i know that poor people roast and bully their friends... I will never take to that and do not welcome such behavior) and misunderstood.
It took a while to realize my self perception is not identical to how others see me. Uts like i had to change my identity because of this. I can't see myself as a sweet nice girl. I just get bullied if i do. And also i now notice my inside personality changing. I have no friends or family and lots of troubles like socially. So it all compounds.
I find it challenging lately. When i first got this job in this poorer area I was homeless but there is mindsets and mannerisms and ways of thinking that if you grew up with money, it doesn't just go away once you become poor. People can tell i am different than them. Richer people seem more colder in retrospect. Maybe my perception is wrong I don't know. I am not the most social person anyway. Poor people are warm and close to each other. I may have aspergers. I am awkward and socially anxious. I grew up being spoiled by parents who really substituted material things for actual care and time and attention. So i am naturally more attached to silly items and dont know how to attach to people. I am not warm even though i admire that quality in others i know i will never be something i am not and i realize also that i probably push warm people away because of my nature and its not by being mean. Its by being awkward, autistic, cold. I thought i was a nice sweet person but even if i am, its not expressed in a way others can understand and so i am often bullied (i know that poor people roast and bully their friends... I will never take to that and do not welcome such behavior) and misunderstood.
It took a while to realize my self perception is not identical to how others see me. Uts like i had to change my identity because of this. I can't see myself as a sweet nice girl. I just get bullied if i do. And also i now notice my inside personality changing. I have no friends or family and lots of troubles like socially. So it all compounds.
