Lately I went to a summer camp and of course my crush who I’ve had a crush on for a year also went there. It was a one week camp. Nothing happened the first 4 days. We only played cards at night, teasing each other sometimes like friends usually do. Well things started to change on the fifth night. We had a party and I decided I would confess today because I will be leaving this country in about two months for university so I don’t think I would have had a chance to tell him again if i don’t do it that night. So I decided to drink a lot to gain my courage. It was funny because no matter how drunk I was I was still a coward. Everyone at the camp knew I wanted to confess love. I spent over half an hour and still couldn’t do it. Suddenly my friend came over and told me “hey he said he knows you like him, he likes you too but he doesn’t know what you think because you are drunk” I was confused, puzzled. So everyone thinks it’s not going to work if they still wait for me to gain my courage so they told me to sit on the stairs in front of the bar. Not long he came and asked me if I wanted to go for a walk. So we went and he just asked me frankly “lots of people been telling me that you have a crush on me, is it true?” In that situation it was inevitable for me to lie so I just told him the truth. We talked for a bit and our coach came looking for us saying that we are going to the second bar. When we arrived at the second bar. I know my limits I already drank a lot from the first bar so I couldn’t take any more drinks otherwise I would throw up. So I just walked to him and asked “hey wanna go for a walk” and he said yes. So we walked together on the beach and we walked quite far away from the bar and we just sat there and talked. We talked about lots of things. I mean we’ve never done this before it was always awkward between us but that night was just perfect for me. (Part2 in the comment)
My crush kissed me and I want to forget what happened what can I do?
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After we talked for awhile he decided to put his arms around me and pulled me to put my head on his shoulder. I never expected that really. And we just continue talking. At some point I told him “you know it’s always difficult for me to look into your eyes” he asked me why is that so and he just decided to do this “ come on try to look into my eyes now” I said I can’t but he resisted and said just only 10 seconds. He looked at me unblinking and when it was 10 seconds he told me to do it again an
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and it went over like this for 5-6times. He decided to kiss me on the sixth time. He counted to 10 and just kissed. I was in shock of course because I didn’t expect him to do that. What I did after just put my hands around his face, smiled and said you are a big boy now (he’s younger than me Im 18 and he’s 17 we’ve been knowing each other since I was 15 and he was 14 so it was quite a thing). He said right after he kissed me that it was his first time and I was his first kiss. That night was jus
