Does anyone understand what its like to be psychotic?

[y67iuhhh]

• I feel like it makes my life very sad.
• I am delusional on a regular basis about regular things and interactions. I am of course less delusional now since I realized how delusional I typically have been. So that's one positive in all this. I don't want to be delusional and psychotic anymore but I don't think it all boils down to choice and free will.
• I was diagnosed as a teen and never even received proper help. Like many a psychotic person, I have beeb self isolating physically and/or mentally/psychologically/emotionally from the world and its inhabitants for over a decade.
• I look back on my recent life I've lived and I am just saddened that I push everyone away due to my delusions and psychosis.
• On top of this, many people have no sympathy for someone psychotic. Hearing negative comments online when I mention I am psychotic and people make jokes about it... Wow, that's so helpful and therapeutic. Thanks.
• I feel so sad inside when I realize the sick delusions I have held about people in my life who I now realize didn't deserve for me to strongly believe those lies about them and for me to feel such strong negative emotions towards them. Sometimes, the emotions were ridiculously strong in a positive way as in I was in love. But the love was based on delusions of the men, thus my love was more of an insult in reality because I could not even see the real person in front of me.
• I fear I will never not be psychotic. I feel less such now but I don't think my will is enough to fully overcome it.

[Googlemyahoo]

Don’t stop taking meds.

My coworker was psychotic. He was absolutely fine medicated super nice and helpful. Fixed my keyfab and my old laptop.

He started acting irrationally and angry they called everyone up to see if they felt threatened. Then offered to get him treatment. He quit. Now he’s living on streets wandering around.

[y67iuhhh]

Thats sad im sorry. It must be hard to have witnessed that

[tony_baloney]

First, I'd like to say the fact you have the mental strength and wherewithal to recognize and admit this behavior is amazing.

To your point, I dont think any one of us can truly understand exactly what you're going through without having experienced it. Either from ourselves, loved ones, or maybe through the study of psychology.

Have you ever tried talking to a psychologist or psychiatrist about medication?

[shesrad]

why dont you try therapy? it might take you going through a few different therapists to find the right one for you but it could change your life

[y67iuhhh]

You have a point

[Nikki1989]

I don't know, and I don't think anyone can know unless you are going through it.

[FckY0u998]

i'm sorry you're going through that. you can always reach out and talk to somebody if you need to

[y67iuhhh]

Thank you so much

[boobliker]

it could also make you happy if you don't think about it too much as life could get easier.

[y67iuhhh]

Thanks!!❤

[jimmy2]

Oh honey I hear you and know your pain please get help if you need it and life can get better but it best if you can let people care in helping you

[y67iuhhh]

Thanka you ❤❤

[jimmy2]

Welcome