Recently I have found myself attracted to my best friends brother who is going though a rough season in his life. To be exact-2yrs of a very rough ungoing divorce that his ex has proven she will go to extreme lengths to get whatever she wants.
He has moved on from his feelings but she is a constant headache because she looks for any chance to drag him back to court even though he keeps winning. He has two very young boys that they are Battling for Custy. But that being said I have knowledge where he is in his journey…but I was surprise to discover feeling for him.
Friends asked me if there was something going on between us I said no he’s like a brother to me. One evening I happen to spend some alone time with him and found out he was no longer that boy I once knew. He’s a man that is extremely intelligent, I was in awe How well versed he was in history & Watched all the documentaries that I watched… I was shocked at how similar we are. I watch and help out with his children he makes them a first priority and he adores them.. that is super attractive to me. He has strong values , Integrity & has most respect for all people. He even stays calm focused and unprovoked by his ex. He is a man of high caliber but I do see that he needs to feel secure in his Finances that been hit hard with court, Focus on his children & school. Dating is far from his mind & after he went through there is fear…
Now for the waves we are both extroverted, playful & flirtatious. I’ve noticed that we’ll have waves of comfortable silence of stroke in each other’s hair and rubbing each other’s feet to Awkward silence of not knowing what to say to Explosive physical playful affection of intense play wrestling in & out of pool, snuggles, nose poke, random burst of the game tag, making fun of how I walk or talk. To both pulling back from physical affection to having burst of-closeness again. What is this how should I Proceed.