Am I just scared of liking him or what?

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All my life I have never liked or fallen in love with anyone. I had never had a crush to the point my parents just accepted the fact that I'll be alone my whole life. I always held my head down in books not spreading anyone a glance and I did try dating both boys and girls but I gave up after weak trying to like them I thought I was asexual sure I had celebrity crushes that we're male so I was sure I was okay but that was until last year when I met this guy well more like smelt him walking by and I looked up to as Me what was the name of his cologne and then I don't know guess me heart heated from a man that wasn't fictional for the first time. i spent a while 2 weeks looking for him cause he worked for a subsidiary in the same company that u did but he wasn't in any of the stores I checked. So I have up November past I started going out with someone else then on new years guess who I see, him. And he asked me out I went home pretty happy we went in a few dates I had a the best time but that was short lives when he confessed that he likes me and enjoys my company but he didn't want a girlfriend after we slept together. He's not my first but he's the first guy I ever liked. I figured I could just live with him liking me but I can't cause all we do is Netflix and chill dates on our days off and we never go out to the beach or the park or the library like we did in the beginning. Sure he hugs me everything he sees me and he stops by to see me and he texts me tho I mostly start the convos. i can't believe he likes me cause I've never had anyone like me before like ever. I'm small petite I don't have any huge female assets sure I have curves but no one can really just go for personality when they like someone. Can they?

Am I just scared of liking him or what?
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