Basically the disability insurance people can't take my doctors word for it about the difficulties I have so they pay their own doctors to reexamine me and decide if I'm actually eligible to get disability for 4 years like my doctor said. But of course they're incentivized to keep the percentage of people who get benefits low. And they're pretty much only testing what I'm good at.
Cognitive abilities, this time we did mostly memory and next time we'll do reaction speed and spatial imagination and stuff like that. Honestly I don't even know if there's a test that can quantify the things I struggle with so I'm pretty much just screwed. But I've always been honest and done my best so far I've tried to describe my issues. Even with working on my self awareness for years now there's still a lot of stuff that I can't explain well so I just try my best. I just have to hope they can see that I actually tried my hardest and they care enough.
These people I'm with now don't even make any decisions they just test me and they send the results to a psychiatrist who actually is a doctor and she looks at the data and it's her word that really matters. But if I do well in the tests it doesn't help me.
So far when I really needed help I've always recieved it so I just have to have faith. I've doing well lately and I really hope I can continue my development but I just have to wait and see.
I had a great dinner with my mom after the tests. The restaurants can serve people again here as long as it's outside. I had a big plate of nachos, some salad with beef avocado asparagus cherry tomatoes and a chocolate cake with vanilla ice cream. MMMMMMMH
They had a reduced menu because they can't serve as many people but it was still really good :)