I just don't like who I have become. I moved to a place where I have few friends, but I do have family. I've hooked up w/ random guys that I've met online... just because I miss going out. I miss friends. I don't know how to make them. I sit at home alone on weekends and watch netflix and sometimes read. I don't like to do things alone, but I don't know how to meet people.. or how to really invest in them. I meet people, sure, but I feel like I can't get close to them... or I don't know how to or something. Idk, I think I just suck at the adult world. I hate going to bed early too. My job is really hard and I'm not perfect at it. I'm a perfectionist for sure... I think that's a big problem. I haven't been sleeping well either. I've been drinking a lot too b/c I just feel like it sometimes. I feel like I'm wasting my life.. but hiking alone is never fun... nor is kayaking or anything, but I have no idea how to find people to go with. I'm not good at anything besides school b/c that's all I've ever known. I know how to be nice, but that's about it. What do I do? I feel like I am completely lost. My friends from college who are in another state say I'm too hard on myself. Another friend working in a foreign country says to do stuff alone. Idk, I just feel like I am at a total loss and I'm creating regret by doing nothing.
Finding that post college I don't really like myself at times... or I'm lost... or not accepting of myself, what do I do?
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