Lost best thing that ever happened to me:(

angel9
went out with boyfriend for 4yrs lived together 2 we broke up a month ago and I still miss him, been going out to gym, tried for 1st time to go out I hated it we live in small town everyone was asking where he was, that just hurt so bad, we text each other stuff randomly,not about relationship, but I want him back, I think we both got too comfortable and he said he didn't fancy me anymore, he never made time to do stuff with me like before. We have had a small talk he said he was happy with his independence and just getting on with things, but he not looking for a relationship with anyone, he not interested, I asked him if he got scared of commitment and he said" yeah maybe I don't know" he can't open up to me at all about how he feels and he knows I still love him, he's filling his time with work and sport I don't even know if he misses me?, I am lost I don't want anyone else, so I said I would leave him alone etc NC but he still wants to text and meet for coffee to "catch up" I'm so confused I have lost best thing that ever happened to me, prob him too but he too stubborn to look into his heart, so what do I do? if I can't be with him I'm not interested in being with anyone else. I've gone through a break up before and that was nothing compared to this one there just something deep inside me telling me he was the one.
Lost best thing that ever happened to me:(
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