I really need help to not think negativity. I'm really depressed? Have images of me cutting myself?

[Anonymous]

I've never been so depressed before in my entire life. I'm always a happy person but now I'm not. Ever since my boyfriend been doing drugs and stays out all night and dosent come back the next day. He always worries me I'm scared that one day something might bad happen to him. I try so hard for him to stop. He still doesn't get it because I get so angry then sad and I'm usually crying over it. Now lately I've been denying that I'm depressed. I don't feel like going out anymore I don't have the energy. I don't talk to anybody. I just stay home all day thinking about it. I'm scared now that fact I would have images of me cutting myself. I don't know what to do or overcome this.

[Mesonfielde]

Well, don't start cutting yourself, that doesn't actually solve anything. You can either quit the relationship or ask your boyfriend to stop and make him realize that by being so irresponsible towards himself he is hurting you.

[Asker]

I'm not planning on it. I just have these thoughts I don't know why for. It scares me. I've tried but I really wAnnt to help him but he too busy thinking he's going a tough time just because he has bad day and dosent realize him doing drugs affects me a lot. He does cocaine meth and weed and dosent stop until his friends can get more. I don't want him to hang with his friends there nothing but bad influence there all have problems but it's just getting me so drained I feel what's the purpose for me I. This world if I can't even help him.

[Mesonfielde]

You exist for the sake of your own existence. The fact that others get help from you is a plus for them. Not what defines you.

[apple24]

What help me sometime is watching romantic movies. Like drama biography 19th century stories. It really romantic and it make me happy inside.

[apple24]

Although later it sucks.