Anxiety: You can't order something without chanting your order in your head first to make sure you don't mess it up, because you are scared you will then someone will laugh or yell at you or something else bad will happen. Going to school or work makes you so nervous you want to have a mental breakdown, and cry in a corner somewhere no one can see you. Anxiety means that you don't go to parties and if you do you are so worried something will happen and you will get in trouble, or even something outlandish like you or someone else will get seriously injured or die. You can't breathe good when you panic, and that makes you panic more because you aren't breathing, and because you can't breathe when you panic you have even shallower breathing because your panicking. Most of the time you end up crying, coping mechanisms only work so well and half the time only calm you down enough that you won't burst out into tears and hyperventilate. Then you feel like a failure because you can't even carry out basic daily functions because you feel constant panic about everything. When you are sick and want to stay home from school you panic that you are going to miss something huge, and never be able to make it up and you will fail school, and get yelled at and never accomplish anything in life. If your sick and need to call off from work it takes you forever to actually build up the courage to call because you are so nervous that you are going to get yelled at or fired , or in trouble because you had to take the day off. You are constantly afraid you are bothering everybody, and that everybody hates you and you hesitate to even just talk simple things to your friends because you are afraid they will get annoyed with you and hate you. Most of the time you know that you are being completely irrational but that doesn't even matter because no matter what you just can't stop and it makes you feel like crap. You always ask friends to go to the counter to pay with you, or order, or go places with you because you are afraid to go alone. In class you probably don't answer the question even if you know the answer, but that doesn't matter because you are too nervous to raise your hand and too scared something will go wrong. Basic things are huge tasks, and you are always worrying and you overthink everything wayyy too much and you can't control it but you hate it and it makes you feel like crap.
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I have anxiety. I wouldn't say it's strictly social anxiety, but it can be triggered by social situitions. I was at work once (a retail job), and we were really busy one day. I was in the middle of helping someone and one person after another kept approaching me and asking for help and I was getting very overwhelmed. Then I noticed my hands were shaking. Then I couldn't breathe right. I was heaving and I couldn't control it. I ran to the back and forgot about everything I was supposed to be doing and started crying and heaving and crying... my coworker was trying to figure out what was wrong but I couldn't get any words out. That's what an anxiety/panic attack looks like for me. They are often triggered when there are a lot of people around me. I had one at a pep rally once in high school because all of the loud people and flailing arms freaked me out.
It feels like I'm being crushed by the energy and presence of other people, as if it has substance to it that can hurt me. I HAVE to get away from it. I feel like I'll be hurt if I don't. It's a fight or flight instinct. Sometimes I lash out at people if I'm holding it back.
It's hard to understand if you don't have it. Any fear is that way. I don't understand why people are afraid of bugs, for instance. I like bugs and they aren't threatening to me, so it's almost impossible to wrap my head around the fear other people have of bugs.
We all feel emotions but we don't choose what emotions to feel. They just happen. Just like someone doesn't choose to become angry about something, you don't choose to be anxious about something. Anger is something we all experience but someone with anger issues will have their anger triggered more easily and will have more intense fit of rage over things that "normal" people might consider trivial. Your boyfriend likely becomes anxious at times, The main difference is your anxiety is triggered more easily by things he might not consider significant and when you get anxious, it is likely more intense than when he experiences it.
Ask your boyfriend to think of a time in his life where he felt empty, out of energy, sad stressed or hopeless and if having someone say "just stop worrying and be happy" would make a difference.
Most likely he will say no.
Now he needs to understand that you feel like that all the time and not just on rare occasions.
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