I want to weight yet I don't want to lose weight?

[Anonymous]

i know my question sounds confusing to people on g@g but recently i've "looked" at my body fully, especially when i'm naked, and i don't like it. during the summer of my 8th grade year, i ran, jogged, did push ups, did crazy hard exercise videos, and just dance, cut off all the sweets that i would usually eat but i also felt so numb and aggravated but the weight was falling off. i stopped working out, due to a number of issues i went through with my family (car trouble, depression, a boy i fell so hard for had died). it's been two years now and i've reverted back to ice cream, 5 or 4 cups of soda (when i do have some), eating cake, lots of bread and fried foods. i asked my mom how my body looked and she told me i gained some weight around the shoulders and the back. how do i put it in the most clearest way? i do but i don't want to lose weight. i'm comfortable, yet i'm uncomfortable. i'm tired of running up and down the stairs and running out of breath, feeling "fat" all the time, feeling ugly and fat, tired of tugging and pulling on clothes to hide my back fat and stomach, tired of sucking in my stomach to clothes my jeans, i'm tired of looking at cute clothes with size 8's and 9's when i'm on the cusp of 15's, 14's, 13's and sometimes 16's. how can i stay persistent? i try finding fun ways, but i just fall off. i fear my want isn't strong enough... i want to feel better, look better, but i just can't push myself hard enough. one of my doctors asked me if i wanted to lose weight and i said no (was a long times ago), so he told me to lose it when i'm ready. i'm not what some would call "huge", i don't look huge, i'm chubby, but i could stand to lose a few pounds. any advice?

[btbc92]

Well you need to cut back on the soda or stop drinking soda. You really don't want to know what they put in that soda. The acid is like the acid that erodes your car. Thats how bad it is for your body. 2ndly, it just sounds like genetics, depression and you not maintaining your exercise regimen. Get back to exercising, eat healthier and maintain your weight healthier. If your unsure go speak with your doctor about your concerns. As long as it healthy BMI for your height, that is all you should be focusing on. Especially if your not an ectomorph. You could be either a mesomorph or an endomorph. Go by your frame, not just your height. Because lack of fat in your diet can make you unhealthy and underweight. It can make you sick and prone to other diseases.

[Asker]

@btbc92 how could it be genetics? i thought that wasn't a factor?

[Asker]

and thank you!

[btbc92]

@Asker Genetics plays a roll in everything you do in your life. That includes hobbies, food, taste, who your attracted to, etc. Your DNA takes on the genetic codes within proteins. Don't know how far you've studied this, but you will learn that in Biology class.