Why I want to eat so much?

I'm not fat. I'm 185lbs so I'm thick which you can see in my pics but I always have this craving to eat and I don't know. I could lose a few pounds but if I keep eating like this I could get diabetes and get fat which I don't want. I recently stopped dating so I am lonely and I don't have any girlfriends because I don't like girls. Do I want to keep eating cause it makes me happy? I'm taking a Mancation to work on myself until I can be happy by myself then am I ready to date again. What's the deal?
Why I want to eat so much?
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