How do panic attacks suddenly come in my life if I had anxiety for the longest time?

[Anonymous]

My anxiety started at the age around middle school. Somewhere inbetween 12-13 years old. Anxiety tends to run in my family, mainly high functioning. I'll be honest and say I've dealt with types of trauma in my life. I'm not close to a specific family member who is a part of me by blood. Met him a few times in my life, realized he wasn't the dad that I thought. Always had a step-dad, and I denied my real dad in my life. I was curious, though so young. From denying him in my life, he turned out to be the worst person I've met. No longer around.

He's said things about me that I no longer think about. End of that. My mom is still in my life, yet she was not happy with my step-dad that I had. As I got older, she did cheat on him. Made me an anxious person. My anxiety became aware in person once people in school knew. I grew up not having the right relationships with people, as romantically interested.

Most of the men I've dated weren't good for me. Egotiscal and mentally abusive, and I've learned a lot and grew. All of them came back to me, asking for things to work. To this day though, I'm in the best relationship with this guy who knows my past. Loves me for who I am. My mom got remarried, and I live on my own.

I've been on birth control, and I started experiencing panic attacks to the point I about made myself sick. I'll dissociate really bad, and it'll feel hard to breathe. I'll trimble and clinch my teeth. Have to close my eyes. I'll start to cry randomly. They're silent, yet so deadly inside.

Obviously, I'll be talking to somebody professional. But how do panic attacks come into your life? I'm only 24.

[IAteTwoFullHams]

I had my first panic attack at age 19 and they became frequent at 23. And there's no serious trauma in my history. Some bad bullying in middle school, sure, but I had a happy family life.

Sometimes you're just genetically predisposed to them, and early adulthood is their most common time of onset.

They're awful, aren't they. I can take SSRIs and they'll go away, but I'll gain weight and lose the ability to enjoy sex and music. I've been on and off SSRIs pretty much my whole life.

[Interstate]

I was 22 when I got them the worst. For me, I go into a mode of hyper ventilation and my heart races like mad. I have had anxiety for as far back as I can remember.