Does it actually "get better"?

[Anonymous]

I've had depression since I was 5 years old and started school, mainly because I was not socially gifted in any way, and struggled hard with getting friends. Now I'm 22 and I still haven't been able to shake it. My life sounds great and put together on paper: I go to university, I have a job, I have friends, I live with my boyfriend of 4 years. I seem happy to other people, but whenever I'm alone I just crumble, because I don't think I'm living for myself anymore. I'm not suicidal, but when I'm alone, I have no reason to live, because I'm so unhappy. I wish I could change it, I wish I was able to make myself happy, but I can't.

So what I'd really like to ask is, if you've had depression and have gotten over it... how the hell did you do it?

[Anonymous]

Forever set, a precious moon is lost.

The others mourn him, with ceremony grand.

Rising up to heaven, the mighty moon of frost

With a melody from the mourning band.

Harvest Barren, wine spilled, lover slumber

beside the bloody scarlet eyes.

Though cut in half, shall be your number

'tis not lost, wherein your advantage lies.

Amuse yourself with the entr'acte.

Seek out new friends once in a bind.

Perhaps to the east one can be tracked

the most needed, you're sure to find.

[slatyb]

1. I saw a therapist for a couple of years to work on my self-esteem and learn to accept my imperfections. That helped a lot.
2. I take Welbutrin.
3. I got older.

I would first urge you to see a physician and get on some medication. If one doesn't work, try another. I tried Prozac, hated it. Welbutrin works better for me.

And if you can, get some counseling and talk about it. Tell your partner and friends how you are feeling so you can get some support.

[D_Bone_Steak]

A classic codependent. You don't know how to get on when alone. I'm the opposite... I'm extremely wanted by outside entities but I just want to be alone.

Do you feel like your battery is drained when alone? Like dealing with yourself is what drains it?