What do I mean by ugly friend?
Being the ugly friend doesn't mean I'm ugly, unattractive, bad looking, unsightly, not gorgeous. It means I have a friend prettier than me, but in my case all my friends are prettier than me, and I'm not lying when I say that.
I'm not one of those people who thinks everyone is beautiful. I know a unattractive looking person when I see it. I know am one of them.
You can imagine how that is for me. Being so ugly and all. My friend gets compliments on their good looks? More admirers? More friends? Yes.
Are they better looking than me? Yes More attractive? Yes, Better body?, Yes, Really? Yes, Am I sure? A hundred percent sure.
How do I feel being the Ugly Friend?
I would be lying if I said I have never felt bad. Infact! I used to feel really bad, I was so insecure, I'm still insecure. If I took a photo, I would stare at it until it turned ugly, then delete!
My bff was the prettiest girl in my class, so many people complimented her looks and they steal do, They would say, "Molly( Not her real name) is so pretty, natural beauty, she is the finest girl in the class. Black beauty."
I turned green with envy everytime I heard this. When some of my classmates would be be debating the top ten prettiest girls in class. My name would never be in number eleven. If you start counting the least prettiest girls in the class, I'm sure I would be in the list of the top five.
The girl I had deemed the least prettiest girl in the class is prettier than me. Gracie( not her real name) was not very pretty, I always thought I was prettier than her, until like 14 people proved me wrong saying, " Gracie is prettier than you, Mona( also not my real name)."
So if she is not the least attractive, then who is? Me? Imagine the least attractive in a class of 62 people, about 34 girls, and you are the least attractive. I'm I really ugly?
A girl told me, " Mona you are not fine, see how your hair is, very rough," she burst into laughter," Who told you that you are fine. Keep deceiving yourself."
I was very sad, my soul felt crushed, when I got home, I stared at the mirror, wondering what was wrong. Why was I so ugly?
I was so jealous of my friend.
But I coped, and I'm still coping, I'm living my best life now( but I'm still insecure)
How did I cope?
My sister says I'm one of the prettiest people in my class, that I'm really prettier but not prettier than Molly.
I basically wear glasses that makes me ugly, and I'm prettier with my glasses, I'm fat, Blah blah, I really don't care anymore. Living my life to please others just won't make me happy.
I don't want to marry a man that will like me for my looks, I want to marry a man that will love me for being me.
Now when I stare into a mirror, I see a beautiful, lovely, gorgeous girl, who is so awesome.
Yes, I was once envious of my friends beauty but now I'm not.
I shout out loud sometimes and say, " My friend is so pretty!"
So yeah, I coped. I will not drop poison in my friend's tea when she's not looking.
How will that help me?
Yes, I'm still a bit insecure, I didn't magically get pretty. I still look the sameSo how do I look really?
Yeah, I'm not going to be sharing my pic anytime soon.
So, that's my life story.
Most Helpful Opinions
You are still so young! When I was in high school, I was chubby and my 2 best friends were little skinny chicks that could get any guy's attention. I used to call them Avril and Ashanti as nicknames b/c they looked just like them! But time passes, we grow older, our body changes.. I started looking good after graduation! The same will happen to you.
if people eat properly but often need to change eating habits