I'm sick of being a virgin. I can't take it anymore. Why do I have to suffer like this?

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I'm soon in a matter of weeks turning 22 and still a virgin. Loosing it is 99% impossible because of how things are set up.

I used to think that it was all my fault and that social awkwardness was the root of all of my troubles
But I was dead wrong. The Incel websites have opened my eyes. It's ALL about looks. I'm ugly.. just 6 feet tall. Have jet black hair. Deepset small squint eyes that are negative canthal tilted. A puffy face with smile lines on each cheek. Can't grow a beard properly and am gaining weight rapidly. That's only a small list of defects on my appearance. Not to mention my slightly crooked teeth

I am butt fugly. On top of that i also may have some sort of social anxiety and awkwardness

I don't want to live like this any longer. Everyone is having fun and living their lives but me not! I don't even have friends anymore

Please don't tell me that I'm not missing much. I feel so left out and behind my peers of the same age group. They have accomplished many things but me not. i do not want to associate myself with the Incel movement because nothing is to gain from them anymore for me. At the end of the day I'm still a virgin. Sticking around those toxic brews of hate only makes my mental health deteriorate further.

I'm not a woman/girl hater. I only hate myself for the way i look. I wish i was never born

It's one of my dreams one day to be loved by a girl but it won't ever happen because of this genetic curse that befell me

Not just girls but everything and everyone dislikes me. As i said above i don't have any friends anymore.. I'm sure it's because of my looks...

Why does this have to be so unfair for me..
I want to fix my life and have fun too

Lately i can't concentrate very well. I'm very depressed and am doing bad with my studies and work too...

Suicide may seem like an option but then again I'm too scared to do it.
I'm sick of being a virgin. I can't take it anymore. Why do I have to suffer like this?
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