Medicine or a family?

So I have a husband and a child. My son isn’t biologically mine although I’ve been in his life for seven years and he is eight (he lives with us, birth mom never sees him, etc.) I love him to death and he is like my own. However, I do obviously want to give birth to a child I want someone who will call me mom, it’s all I've ever wanted. My husband and I have started trying to have a child. I have recently switched therapists and was talking with her. She informed me that the medication I am on and the amount is far to great to have a child with. I would need to go off medication for my anxiety and depression to be able to fulfill my dream of having a child. We’ve been slowly lowering my medication, but it is very hard. Without my medicine I feel like I’m dying, having major panic attacks daily to the point of passing out and vomiting. My depression is out of control and I can’t bring myself to do anything and I feel trapped. My mental health is spiraling, but I want to have a baby. I was wondering if anyone has had to deal with or going through anything like this? Thoughts? Advice? Anything?
Medicine or a family?
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