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What Love Did To Me

Before I start, just wanna state that nothing has happened with the relationship I'm in to write about this, just something I've been through before, and thought I'd just share it.

What Love Did To Me.

That one question that goes through your head or that you're constantly asked.. "Do you believe in love?" Those mixed emotions you feel. You've been through a lot, more than what most people would believe or think you have. You wanna say yes, but you also want to say no. The tiniest action that a person does towards you can be the subject of you believing in love or not.

The ancient, holy kind, that presses together strangers into families, that knits warmth and kindness into communities, that reunites and binds and heals what was broken, that redeems and forgives and lays itself down for new life.

I'm sure all who are looking for relationships have that ideal sort they want but previous experiences may have messed those hopes of finding it. For those who just think I can easily say all this just cause I'm in a relationship... you're wrong.

What Love Did To Me

I'm at a young age, but believe it or not, I've been broken into pieces too many times to count. I'm that sort of girl that opens up easily, falls too easily and believe in things too easily and the outcome of that sent me into self destruction. I became a mess, I felt like nothing would be right and I would end up with that same outcome every other time I try. Have you ever had that feeling where everything was just golden and perfect? Everything felt right, you thought you found your happiness and you blossomed into this beautiful flower that was eye-catching and constantly shining. But truthfully you were just grasping for the sun and water to keep you alive. You had something that you wanted all to see as perfect and to be the ultimate goal. Or the fact that you just didn't know how to let go. That feeling where everything comes down at once, the world falling at your feet into millions of pieces and all you could do was just curl up in a ball and deal with it by yourself. That is exactly what I went through.

This caused chaos when I first met the guy I've now been with for very long. My trust issues were gone, don't think I even had trust in my vocabulary at that point. My wanting to be a flower again was a sudden urge, I wanted that sun and water to come back and help but all I thought about was the thorns that was going to be in the way. It's like my life suddenly turned into a weed. This MyTake is now going to be very cliche, but I hope you somehow sense what I went through, I really don't wanna go through the type of guys I met in the past, its utter nonsense and it was pain... physically, mentally and emotionally. In the end I'm still the same girl, I open up easily to people , not as open as I used to be but I do still have that character in me. Of course I've tweaked things here and there but from how I was then to now, I'm still the same just improved. I've learnt a lot, a lot for someone my age, I really hope any of the younger girls or guys on here don't ever go through what I did, because it kills you literally. Just keep being yourself, there will be times where you just wanna be single and forget all this shit and I really don't blame you, keep it at your pace. Don't let anyone force or make you do something that you're not comfortable.

What Love Did To Me

Feels good to get this out, I've been privileged to have been with an amazing guy for so long now, after being shattered to pieces and I hope for those who are still hoping, I hope this MyTake somewhat helps you.

Good luck to all you GaGers and total respect to my single lovers who aren't looking for a relationship! ❤️

What Love Did To Me

What Love Did To Me
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