I left a wonderful girl because of her past and decisions... and now I need HELP?

This is going to be long people. I thank you so much if you read the entire thing. Hopefully i don't bore you. Thanks.

last month I made a real good (female) friend. Well, we were mutual friends who talked through Facebook since the end of last year. I got to know her real well, talked to her almost every day. I knew she liked me from the start cuz she expressed clearly. "ive never felt this way".

I've never dated or kissed anyone prior to being with her. Originally I wanted to be friends (even though she was real pretty) but she kept pushing herself in hopes of me liking her. I eventually started to feel something. She was So kindhearted, sweet and compassionate with me but there were other things that strayed me away from committing to her. Her past.

First off she was experienced, been in and out of relationship doing who knows with all those guys. I never wanted a girl like that. I know it sounds self-centered and ugh… closed minded. She’s done so much stuff that I would not be okay with, drink n party all night getting wasted, hooking up with guys, impulsiveness and pressured into things easily. I don’t want that to be my girlfriend. I believe I deserve what I wished for because it’s only fair, I saved myself.

I pretty much led her on knowing I most likely not end up with her. I got lost in the care and wonderful experiences we had with each other. I developed feelings and Ill never forget her. What I did was tell her I don’t want to be in a relationship with her although we already been kissing and doing things (not actual sex, but close). I feel terrible, shattered inside, devastated I lost such a wonderful friend who actually liked me for who I am but I threw her away. Giving me an ultimatum of either you stay or you leave, I took the leave her path… I did not want to be in a relationship where I’d constantly worry for my girlfriend. Eventually it would damage me inside. I knew what it would do to me. We moved too quickly anyway. Way too fast.
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In the end she was heartbroken. She had the strongest feelings for me telling me I was the most wonderful guy she's ever met. She thought I was too good to be true. She wasn’t proud of her past and proud of the things she did but she still kept going
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I think about her everyday , every moment I get I think of her. I want her back as a friend. Did I make a mistake? Should I try to make her my true friend again? Should I give this wonderful girl a chance? I need help everyone, just some advice plzz
I left a wonderful girl because of her past and decisions... and now I need HELP?
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