I am 21 years old, junior in college. I am a video game developer major, but I’m not sure what I specifically want to do for a job in that department. I feel like I don’t know what I want in life which concerns me. I have a beautiful 21 year old girlfriend that I’ve been with for almost 4 months. I asked her a couple days ago of what she’s looking for in a relationship, something I never thought of asking her till now, and she told me that she’s looking for something long term and wouldn’t hurt me or mess around. I didn’t know what to think because, I love her so much, but I don’t know what I want in life to where I couldn’t tell her that our relationship will last long term, as in engagement and marriage, but I also told her that I’m not looking to screw around in our relationship either, and that if our relationship lasts long term, then I’ll be happy, but I don’t know what I want in life right now. I know I want to travel and see the world in my lifetime, which I know my girlfriend has the same goal. But anyways, when I told her I don’t know if our relationship will last long term, she tried hiding that she started to feel sad, but I could tell cause I was cuddling with her and I felt her heart beat change when I told her that I don’t know if our relationship will last long term and her eyes started welling up and she didn’t move or say anything for a couple seconds. I didn’t really convey my message the way I wanted to, so I hugged her for a while and told her that is not how I meant to word it, and so I told her that I don’t know where I want to live (as far as a country) when I get out of college. She understood but still felt sad and I told her that what I really mean to say to her is that I can’t give a final answer if we‘re going to be married in the future, and that is when she looked at me and told me that she doesn’t expect an answer right now and that it’s much too soon to have an answer cause we’re still getting to know each other.
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I’m glad she at least felt a little better and agreed with me. But how do I decide what I want to do in life as far as where to live based on my goals of traveling and what I want to specifically do in my future job. I love my girlfriend so much, but I don’t know what to do. How do I figure this out?
