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Why do I think about breaking up with my boyfriend everyday?

I’m in a 2 year relationship with this guy and he’s living with me. Okay I feel stupid even typing this and I’m not asking whether I should dump him or not because I know I have to. I’m just wondering how to be able to stand on my own two feet to be able to feel ready to dump him. Basically, I was a damn good girlfriend to him and supported him and 4 months into the relationship I found out he was sexting a famous influencer in America. He still continues to look her up behind my back even though he knows how hurt I am. Then just this week I found out he was sexting someone else he found on Kik during lockdown last year. He also said he recently saw his crush from high school and he said his heart fluttered! Unsurprisingly, she is almost identical to the “influencer” he’s always obsessing over. I know he’s bad for me. He’s living with me though and I have become so dependent on him that I don’t know how to find the strength to break up with him. I’m going back to college in September so I need to do this soon if I’m going to. Also just to mention I also suffer with depression so that’s why this is weighing so heavily on my mind. In don’t live near anyone else so I’m very isolated. Any advice would be really helpful. Thanks !
Why do I think about breaking up with my boyfriend everyday?
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