But yes I will really miss him too and I’ll remember him forever but I am not in love with him.
I just feel super guilty about leaving him after so many years and knowing him I feel like he’ll never get over it or move on. He’s only 29 and I feel almost 100% certain he’ll never get married or have a family life. He’ll probably go back to substance abuse again. I don’t want to do that to him.
I care about him a lot but I don’t want to live the rest of my life as eventually his wife.