Last night I told my boyfriend of three years my biggest, darkest secrets and he seemed so un-bothered why?

[Puppystarfish23]

Last night my boyfriend couldn't sleep and neither could I. I started getting into my own head like people do at night and I remembered something I'd repressed for years and tried to forget.

I just looked at him and I felt so scared of what would happen if I told him this but I thought now it's been 3 years and I know he really loves me I feel safe enough to tell him.

He instantly knew something was up with me so I told him everything and I cried my eyes out. I begged him not to dump me and not to think of me differently now. He just hugged me and smiled and didn't really have much to say about it.

I told him he's the only person who knows about it not even any of my family know and that I don't like talking about it so don't bring it up ever again or use it against me.

It's the reason I kept things from him in a relationship and I only just explained why 3 years on in are relationship.

He just hugged me and tried to make me feel safe as possible. I still blame myself for what happened and see myself as so stupid for my part that I played in my secret. I was technology a adult at the time this happened but not mentally well and was still at a age were I could be easily manipulated.

He told me he thinks it's more common than I think and that it's okay but I'm so scared of what he really thinks once he's had time to form a opinion.

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1 y

He honestly doesn't realise how much he saved my life when we first met I was just finally getting out of a really really dark place when we first met. I don't want him thinking Iied to him and now he's somewhat trapped with me he's stuck to someone he thought was someone different

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1 y

He's been so sweet to me today. He came to check on me after he finished work and been taking loads of care of me. I swear I'm the luckiest girl in world sometimes

[Andres77]

Give it a little time. You took a huge first step. I’m glad ur safe now. I’m glad it wasn’t worse. Sounds like you survived something heavy. I’ve dated some girls with a dark past. It was hard for them to open up. What you’re experiencing is what they feared as well, rejection for your past. Sounds like he’s supportive.
I hope you find what you need, dear.

[Puppystarfish23]

Thank you. He really is a amazing man and I love him so much. It's been hard to heel keeping it to myself for about 5 years but now Ives told him I know he will be there to help me move past it like he had with other stuff in my life

[Andres77]

I’m not going to ask what you did or what happened to you. That’s not my business. If ur interested I can share what the girls I dated had been involved in via DM. Your call.
All the best.

[Puppystarfish23]

Thank you but it's something I'd rather keep to myself for now anyway

[Andres77]

👍👍👍

[Shy_Steve]

If you really like just keep Showing him instead of telling him, Because he doesn't want to keep hearing how bad things were and what you done in the past so just keep sending him Gestures that you know he likes.

[watercolor_lions]

It sounds like you found a keeper! Super happy for you.

[boggboss]

Because simply put it was not a massive thing to him you are doing a lot of overthinking hun relax and trust him

[exitseven]

You went through some hard experience and he is being compassionate and caring.

[SiberFox]

Now I'm curious, but he seems to have accepted it, things'll be fine