For many years, I have been seeking a woman without a romantic past where we can be each other's first real relationship.
Back in 2020, I happened to stumble upon this girl online unexpectedly. We met on a coding forum, and after talking for some time, she disclosed she never had a boyfriend or even a male friend! We really hit if off and we talked for many months. She was a devout Catholic girl who was raised in a strict, homeschooled family with 6 other younger siblings in rural Illinois.
After talking for so long, we discussed the potential of getting married. We talked about our honeymoon and how we would name and raise our kids. I was really hoping to marry her.
Sadly, when we met the first time in person, she rejected me. She later went on to meet another guy and marry him. He got to be her first everything! Her first love, her first kiss, her first real relationship, her first marriage, her first sex... I mean EVERYTHING!
I am still devastated and heartbroken till this day about it. Anything that reminds me of her brings me to my knees in sadness and disbelief.
The thing is, I want to find a woman just like her when we first met, one without a romantic past. One that has never had her first love or a boyfriend. I don't want to settle for anything less.
