after my boyfriend and i had a spat i made some realizations that maybe i might have feelings for my best friend. he’s always been there for me and gotten me through tough situations with my boyfriend. for some background, i have never met my best friend in person. we met online and became close that way. he lives a few states over from me and we’ve just never met in the two years we’ve been friends. my boyfriend and i have been together for 2.5 years this month. my boyfriend and i have had some issues and i’ve debated multiple times if it was best for the both of us if we moved on. however, we’ve stayed together in the end due to certain obligations. though, i absolutely adore my boyfriend, i love him so much but i can’t help but feel some kind of love towards my best friend. i don’t feel sexually attracted to him, though i do have issues with attraction. i have to be physically close with people to be able to feel that. but, after around 6 months from my realizations i actually told my friend i had a platonic love for him and he confessed that he loved me but i feel as though his love is more romantic than mine. he seems to be opening up a bit more about his feelings but they make me feel dirty. like i am having some kind of emotional fling with him even though i have made clear boundaries that i only see him as a friend and i care only about the relationship with my boyfriend. i just don’t know what to do. i feel like i have made a huge mistake with telling my best friend that i care for him deeply. my boyfriend is aware that i have feelings and care about him, it is no secret, but now i feel like i have to hide from my boyfriend because my friend sees it as something more.
My best friend is in love with me. what should I do?
