I don’t know why i’m so insecure with myself in my relationship?

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Hi everyone,
i’m a 32 year old female and my insecurity has gotten the best of me. i think i’ve always been insecure but it’s gotten worse recently. i don’t think im ugly by any means, its just social media has gotten the best of me and i hate it. so my boyfriend has followed a bunch of girls on instagram who are gorgeous and like a bunch of their pictures and it makes me so insecure. their bodies are perfect and then i compare myself to them and i automatically hate how i look and then i start arguments with my boyfriend on why he follows these girls and why he likes their pictures. i know this is something i am going to have to live with because no matter what a man is going to follow girls and like their pictures. this is something i have to seek therapy for and it truly sucks because i don’t have money to pay for a session. yes i work full time, but i use all the money i make to pay bills 😩 both my mom and sister tell me that no matter what a guy is going to follow and like their pictures and that they think i should seek help too. without help from a therapist, i will 100% suffer with this situation and more than likely be on my own. until i have the funds to see a therapist is there any advice anyone on here can give me to deal with insecurity? i also hate the fact that i have my guard up with him as well. he knows it and it makes him sad. I don't know, i think i have my guard up because i am scared what he is capable of doing on social media. i don’t know, but anyone please any advice to heal insecurity will be so helpful. thank you in advance.
I don’t know why i’m so insecure with myself in my relationship?
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