He is a guy friend who i confessed to in the past and who rejected me because he said he is prioritizing his family. It turned out he had an abusive partner and at that time he didn't tell me, he only told our common friend and had been emotionally using me whenever they fight or even if they didn't fight.
But, whenever he takes my calls, he always leaves his house where his ex partner is and talks to me in a different place. He tells me someone might hear so he is taking the call in a different place. I also wonder why he has to hide his calls with me from his ex partner before.
Lately, we somehow fell back to the same pattern of codependency where he is always asking how i am and always wanting to emotionally support me and I noticed it.
It felt as if he wanted to be needed by me and he wants the compliments so I gave it to him but at the back of my mind, i already have doubts and was also questioning why am I again in a situation where it feels like I have a partner? I'm supposedly not wanting anything at this point because I am still not mentally okay.
Although I feel that way, i still responded to him and in fact we sort of became each other's therapist whenever we have anxiety as we call each other and talk to calm ourselves.
I called him when i had panic attack and he called me when he had family problems.
Recently though, there were times he delays in responding and im bad to do this but I sort of found it as my way out and decided not to anymore respond to him. He explained himself though and told me he had been super busy at work and still tried to comfort me.
Am i bad enough to find this as my way out? Why does he keep on keeping tabs on me and asking me how i am? Why the secrecy of his calls with me from his ex partner? Why also hide the fact he had a partner from me but tell our common friend?
I'm a bit uncomfortable with this because it doesn't seem like a normal friendship but i also dont know what to call it
