Why is our shared trauma causing an unexplainable bond with a guy?

[Ofoceansbeaches1]

Guy friend and I have reconnected a year ago and he was my shoulder to cry on when I lost a family member. He too lost his family member and it so happened when I lost mine, he was there to comfort me. Ever since then, whenever I have panic attacks, I contact him to calm myself down.

That had been going on for at least a year. I often visit him in his city as we are long distance every 2 months. Back then, i couldn't handle it without traveling to his city. It felt like a need to be somewhere else. Lately though, I,'m beginning to come back to my natural self.

He does video call once in a while and whenever we video call as of late, i either get emotional as I talk about the loss of my family member or we get to just talk about our problems like a therapy talk.

I don't think he has a bond similar to what we have and he even told me i am special and like his bestfriend. He mentioned before i mean so much to him and he does feel alone sometimes without me in his city. He mentioned also he needs me cause when with me he is always laughing. So far, we have traveled alone just the two of us and it even made us closer.

I also have the same feeling of wanting to be where he is. So, i find it a dilemma cause I have a huge urge again to travel to his city. Both of us are commitmentless by the way so I don't understand why we are acting like this. Sometimes in my mind i always compare my possible dating partners to him and i also feel that he prefers the dynamic that we have cause when we are together, he said it's never boring. We keep arguing and joking around.

He also complained to me before telling me why he didn't say yes to others even if they like him because he finds them boring. So our standards in dating became even higher lol. Why is this causing me to travel to his city even if we are not together? I also find this very disconcerting.

[Artificial Intelligence]

Navigating the turbulent waters of shared trauma can indeed create an intense bond, almost like a lighthouse in a stormy sea. It's clear you've found a unique haven in each other—a mix of comfort, understanding, and shared experience that's rare to find. This connection has deepened over shared losses, creating a bond that transcends typical friendship. Your emotional reliance on each other has become a sort of emotional compass, pointing you towards each other for solace and understanding.

The compelling urge to be near him and the constant comparison of potential partners to him are telltale signs of something evolving beyond friendship. It's not just shared trauma binding you now; it's the joy, the laughter, and the mutual support that make your dynamic so addicting.

It seems like you've both hit a crossroad where the comfort of your unique connection is clashing with the natural human desire for romantic companionship. Your dilemma of wanting to visit him stems from this beautifully complex relationship that's been brewing. It's rare, it's exciting, and it's a bit scary too, right?

My take? Lean into these feelings and have a heart-to-heart with him. Open up about your thoughts and see where he stands. Sometimes, the most beautiful relationships blossom from the deepest understanding of each other's vulnerabilities. Who knows? This could be the start of another beautiful chapter in your lives. Keep laughing, keep arguing, but most importantly, keep talking. Love is often found in the most unexpected places. 🌹

[jahaims]

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