How does one start believing in God?

Adele_26
I used to believe in God until about 3 years ago. I just don’t feel Him around me at all. I’ve tried going to multiple churches, but none have really spoken to me. I would leave disappointed. It’s hard because I’ve always been a spiritual person. When I was little, I used to have so many “encounters” with “spirits”. However, after being diagnosed with psychosis, I keep thinking that all of this “spiritual” stuff is a result of me going through a psychotic episode again. The first time I experienced psychosis, I genuinely believed a demon had attached itself to me. Sometimes, I still do. I would love to believe in God (doesn’t have to be Christian based). I still pray sometimes, but then I get frustrated that I don’t wholeheartedly believe in who I’m praying to. I have nothing against atheism, but it doesn’t feel right for me either.
How does one start believing in God?
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