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I’ve always like him (20) but not romantically, as I have a boyfriend so I was never attracted to him sexually (or that’s what I wanna think). It’s rather admiration and affection in a friendly manner. Although, I could unexpectedly hugged him sometimes so I guess he was aware I was attracted to him. In January, we spontaneously started texting for hours during some nights, and we got to know more about each other having a lot of connection. However, we also talked about sex, made some compliments and shared intimate stuff, which make my crush get super real this time. We have been like this since then and my feelings got more serious, to the point I care about him and text him almost everyday. We spent nights texting each other without stopping for hours talking about relationships, feelings, random stuff, everything. He knows I love him and that I care about him cause I tell him. But at uni, he now acts a little dumb towards me when we’re around his friends and I don’t like that, he’s almost completely different but still nice tho. My boyfriend is aware that I’m friends with him but not too much about the intensity of my crush. I just wonder if this guy might feel the same back, as we always get to talk about sex and relationships when texting or irl. He even told me I could visit his parent’s place in their home town and that I’m gorgeous. But don’t get to feel 100% sure whether or not he might feel the same.

So my roommate’s bf’s best friend is super attractive and checks off a lot of my boxes personality & life desires wise. I very much want to pursue something with him, but I’m super nervous since I’m in my mid/late 20s & have only ever had 1 boyfriend (who I dated off & on for a few months at a time for a few years, v toxic), he’s 1.5 years younger than me & has only ever had 1 girlfriend (only dated her for a couple months), & we’re also in a friend group together. I have more hookup experience than him, but I don’t really have a lot of dating experience, especially not healthy dating experience. The few times I have dated in the past, I’ve been told that I’m too clingy or move too fast to be serious bc I’m very touchy when I like someone. My love language is physical touch & sex is how I express a lot of affection, & sex early on doesn’t mean I’m not trying to be serious, it means I’m interested in you. If I can’t express myself in that way, then we’re not compatible.

He invited me over to his place the other night to watch some tv, & I went over & we drank some wine. I was holding his hand, put my head on his shoulder, cuddled up next to him, etc. I was expecting him to make the next move if he was interested in doing so. I’m very nervous about making all the physical moves bc I’ve been told in the past that I’m too cuddly & too physical. Well, he has even less experience than me & I don’t think he really knows how or when to move it to the next level. Long story short, I ended up leaving the other night without so much as a kiss from him, despite me being very cuddly. He seemed receptive to me touching him and when I even asked if I was doing too much he told me no, he just didn’t make a move to move things forward.

Is he uninterested & just wanting the attention? Or does it seem like he’s nervous too?