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There’s been this school that I’ve been trying to get a job at for almost as long as I was at the last school I worked for ( 2 years?). This is a recruiter I dealt with before & I’ll start with saying I finally got the gig. The application process was always tedious: indeed apply, questionnaire that can probably add up to about a paragraph, interview with recruiter (this guy) and finally panel interview w/ hiring team. The furthest I made it over a yr ago was to that panel interview & got that rejection email, every other time after they’d send the questionnaire & I got a rejection email shortly after. Well this time around, I made it to the panel interview, was told this was the last step & then am told they want to meet me one last time to ask questions to gauge my experience & my expectations were very low but tried my best and guess it worked out this time around.

This time when I first met with the recruiter, he just went on almost an hr talking about company culture and kind of tested me too. At one point he said he wanted to hear from me because “he felt like he was doing most of the talking”. Every time he’d give info or give an order he’d always end with that *reassuring* “okay” & it kinda threw me off at times. He did warn me when we first met that he thinks the hiring team would want to meet with me and they did. Yesterday, he calls me to tell me that they extended an offer & I told him I wanted to move fwd but needed to let them know I had a NYE event scheduled after I met with them & wanted to make sure it wouldn’t be an issue. And he said I threw him a curveball, I didn’t do anything wrong but he wanted me to speak with the hiring mgr before moving fwd bc he didn’t want to speak for them. He said it should be fine but that curveball comment threw me off. You know when you just feel like someone may be reading you wrong? I come across maybe as too reserved to him but I answer “okay” and asked questions to show interest almost every time.

I'm a 23F, about to be 24, still in college. Though I've been asked out before, not by the right guys, I'd never had a first date. I never had a boyfriend. I have a specific type/look in men that I'm attracted to. But the guys I would seem interested in are either not interested in me or they are not aware of my interest in them. I'm quite quirky in appearance, personality. But I'm very smart, curious, open minded and observant (If you're curious as to why I look like, you can go to this link If I'm pretty like people tell me, how come guys don't ask me out?

I'm also usually forward when speaking with others. After a guy who I fell for didn't return his feelings, I shut out and stopped approaching guys and showing interest, in fear of rejection and just encountering the obvious. It took me months to get over him.

A lot of people in my age bracket are already in relationships, engaged or married. And it seems like they're all pretty much the same in personality, style, common interests and friends. I feel like the odd one out without any experience or proposals. I was raised in the Midwest, but I currently live in the deep south. So that might explain a lot. This not only feels odd to me, but like it's too soon for everyone to be married this young. I want to be in a relationship, but I feel like I'm too weird or quirky for men to handle or to be attracted to. Like I just turn them off right from the start of the conversation or minutes into. So I just keep quiet and too myself, unless someone interesting enough catches my eye. I don't like to waste my time with people who aren't gonna make time for me, benefit me or who I see as fake and toxic. Pretty valid, is it not? I know what I want and what I'm looking for, but I'm open for something different to me.

Could anyone give me any ideas as to why? And if you are or have been through what I'm going through, please give your story. Thank you!