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Going to be extremely vulnerable here---

I just found out that I have to get a hysterectomy (removing my ovaries) done because I have stage 4 endometriosis (the most severe type). My entire uterus has scar tissue upon scar tissue. I'm still in my 20s. I haven't found my forever partner, still a virgin. 3 doctors now have advised me to get it done so it won't spread to my lungs or liver or cause them to remove my bowels all together too.

I know it will be for the best. But im scared that when I do get a boyfriend, he will be disappointed he won't be able to see my growing belly, or rub my belly and he might view me less of a woman. I'm really at a cross road here. Its extremely uncommon for a woman in their 20s with no children to have one.

The only positive I see is that I won't have a period anymore, but I feel like a freak and I will be at the mercy of someone else to carry my child and what if I say something one day they don't like and they take it out on the baby? this is something that worries me. Can I please get insight from the girls AND guys on this one