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I'm hurting right now and very upset. My suspicious were confirmed just 2 days ago when my husband left his FB messenger open. It was messages between him and my SIL (sister-in-law). He admitted to her that he always loved his ex girlfriend Olivia from his much younger years. They met as 9 year-olds playmates, then dated for a short time in their Sophomore year of HS, she broke up the next year and met someone else.

The woman is married but still has him on his FB contact list as friends. He admitted to my SIL that he still loves her more than me. He loves me but I'm not really his first option. He would've wanted to have kids with her. He also said it was true what he once told me while drunk when we were just dating. Then this was the hurting part for me, the SIL asked if he would leave me if Olivia were to get divorced now and she reciprocated his feelings and he reply was a ''Yes, unfortunately I would leave (my name) but that'll never happen. I have to accept being in Olivia's forever friendzone''.

Flashback to the time we were just boyfriend and girlfriend:

We were drinking and while making love, he called me by her name. He literally said ''Oh Olivia, I love you... yeah''. Then tried to fix it right away when I got upset immediately. He called it a stupid drunken mistake and how we would never get drunk like that ever again and even reconfirmed me a bunch of times that he got over her already. I stupidly believed him.

Is this fair? We have a 7 year-old son and he's still obsessing over her? He never got over her and just got with me as second best.

I have recently developed a crush on this guy in my friend group. We have been hanging out a lot recently. Last time we hung out he met me at a bar after work. He got me some drink and we were both pretty drunk, Teasing each other a lot. Every time we hang out someone has asked us if we are together, I have a lot of male friends and I don't get asked this unless I'm with him. Our friends think we should go out but I'm not sure if he is interested. Later on that night, we were talking about who is stronger. So we had several playfights in the middle of the street at like 4 am. He won and very easily pinned me to the ground. I'm pretty sure he let me win the last time.

If I ask him to hang out he tends to reply quickly but when I text him with something that isn’t a question he doesn’t reply. He also lives with his ex-girlfriend, they broke up in the summer and they both seem happy to be apart but I'm not sure if he is completely over it.

I feel like there is something between us and I want to see where it goes but I don't love that I always ask to hang out and he doesn’t. He is like that with everyone tho. Am I being delusional or is something there?