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I'm 20 years old and a 2/10 in looks my whole life women have always avoided me or was openly rude to me even though I talk to everyone with respect, understand boundaries and i dress nice and have very good hygine girls sometimes compliment my outfits on tiktok and other social medias but a no girl has ever complimented my outfits or even said hello in real life, like usually when I'm out with male friends there has been a lot of times when we bump into some female friends of theirs and usually the girls just give me a disgusted look or say "You can go" or "someone inside is calling you" and it's been going on for many years and all the girls in my old school and collge have avoided me not one of them even said hello to me and there has been a few times where I've said hi to them and other girls which some was friends of friends and they all ignore or they say hi back but ignore and avoid me the next day and i see many of unkempt average to below average looking dudes be a lot more successful with women than me so that's a big shock

IMAGINE THIS SCENARIO: You and a boy have always been more than friends.. a quiet understanding, late-night talks, little gestures that blur the line. He finally says it outright and proposes something real. You care about him, but you’re not sure, so you ask for time.

That same week he goes out, drinks too much, and dials you. Your phone is already engaged with a call from another guy.. your best friend, nothing romantic, but it’s a long vent-session you don’t want to cut off. (Your guy) calls again. And again (10+ times). You see his name flash, your stomach knots, and you let it ring out because you’re not ready to face his voice right then.

He switches to text: IG, WhatsApp, short messages that get more urgent. You read them, guilt prickling, but you don’t answer. Confused and irritated, you block him everywhere like shutting a door to buy a minute of quiet.

Later the day you felt the guilt is louder than the fear. You unblock just enough to call. It rings, once, twice, and then voicemail. You wait for his call back... nothing comes.

The next day you hover over the unblock button. Part of you wants to explain: “I was on another call, I panicked.” Part of you freezes.. what if he leaves me on read? What if he says he’s done, that he’s moved on? That dread sits heavy, stealing sleep. You replay his silence, wonder if he’s already talking to someone else, feel the shame of your own avoidance.

"5 months have passed" (You were still waiting to fix) & beneath it all, another question: maybe you’re not just scared, maybe you really do need time and space to understand what you want before you try to fix what you broke.